The reply for historical time

29 july 2015 should be a historical moment for us , where you decided to move on from me , step aside from me .. Bon voyage for two of us ... 

At that time i never realize it would be the last chance i could talk to you without responsibility of any decision you will take , without any prohibited term and condition , before everything was changed ... 

You were a good writer , you wrote it beautiful , and without any painful feelings i left on you , without make me feel sad again . But inside of it there is something painful you want to said . Shortly i think you said  : thanks for any fight you made this recent years , and you know you can't love me again , you know you already find someone new , and our story will be a history ... 

Anyway what i will reply , thanks for history . History never leave without any strechmarks or pain ... In some people still can feel the history until they grew old  , it just feel like yesterday , even they are old they can remember it clearly . 

 

You said you never write for someone else and you wrote once and it is for the last time you wrote . But for me our story never stop speak to me . I will never stop to write anything about you comes to my mind .. You still my inspiration to my life ,my blog , my poetry . sometimes the moment come what i will do is take my phone asap , write it and see what it will be . 

When they recall history they will make a song to all people for never forget a war they 've been through .. 

Maybe it was the greatness of god creation .. However they still can remember the history , and have different  purpose for their life 

Sad :(

Today i just lost my truly bestfriend , i won the battle in my job but i lost him forever , and i feel so deeply sad . He is  my truly bestfriend who encourage me in every situation , i never scare to confess anything i felt , to share i struggle in life or just in my mind  , to go through hardness in life . Even sometimes he head-strong , even sometimes i feel he is very annoying . Sometimes he is just like a big baby need everybody to take care .. And debated any small things that i think it doesn't need to discuss . Sometimes he easily get mad on things that wont satisfy him , and i feel really annoyed for a moment .But he is my bestfriend i love the way he is ! Now he is gone , no one will annoy me , asking me a lot of not so important question , remind me if do something wrong , remind me if i treat people bad , no one will accompany have a late night meals . It just because small things in job affect to our for years friendship. Just because my stupidness mouth talk to him inappropiate ways . I shouldnt talk to him like that since he is a sensitive man . And the most painful things he said that i changed a lot recent years and he said im not the person he know before . My heart is really broken , he has a part of my life and i feel something on my part is gone forever .. Maybe if i lose of that battle job , i never lose him ...